Peace

God is so amazing. Ya know how its so much easier to look back at a situation or time in your life and see what God was doing. But when you’re in the midst of it its not so easy to see. He’s always teaching, stretching, and growing us even when we don’t see it. I am so thankful for the time of growing I’m in right now. My week started out horrible and is ending a little brighter. The power of the mind. Anyway.

I just watched the movie Click and it has got me thinking. If you’ve never seen it, its about always looking forward to the future and wanting more than what you have. I don’t want to wish my life away. Ya know. The storyline of the movie just speaks to me because of what Gods been trying to teach me. To enjoy the simple things in life. I want to find joy in my days more than I do. I want to enjoy doing the laundry and cleaning the house because that is my job right now. This is the season of life that I am in right now. I want to enjoy every minute of it. Yes I will have good and bad days everyone does but I’m not content. I want to find a contentment that lasts.

Im still adjusting to life as we know it. Being a mom for one thing but then staying at home and having one income and no more just Pete and Keni. Sorry if I’ve already blogged about this but it’s something Im still processing. Still praying about and working through it. God isn’t giving up on me that’s for sure.

Im just really at peace right now with where Im at. I have hope for my future but am in love with the present. Im excited about this journey Im on of discovering who I am as a wife, mother and homemaker. That’s me, that’s my title and it makes me smile.

Life

I sit here in my living room watching the candle flicker, just got Nonah to bed, Peters playing X-box, and I’m thinking about my week. Trying to figure out how to express in words the things that I have been feeling. I don’t know if it is a woman thing or maybe it just happens to me but I am an emotional rollercoaster. I just want some stability in my life but no I am up then down then some where in between and all over the place. It seems like I’ll have a good week or even a couple of good weeks and then boom something happens that just sets me off the deep end and I just plummet. I allow that one thing to upset me or get me thinking or become negative and just head downward. Sometimes I can snap out of it but its not always that easy. Then I’m in a “funk” (that’s what I call it) for a few days or however long it takes to get back on track. I don’t know why I get off track so easily or so often. I guess I’m sensitive but is this common for all women or am I too sensitive? There’s all kinds of things I could list but they’re no excuse, right? Boundaries. I need to have boundaries and not allow others to effect my emotions. I heard a teaching on this that everyone needs to take control of their own emotions and feelings and stop blaming others for them. Such a powerful teaching but man it’s a hard thing to do. It involves forgiveness, humility, and strength to own up to your feelings and take control. That’s what I’ve realized this past week that I can pray all I want about a situation but if I don’t have that humility and my heart isn’t in the right place its not going to do much.

That’s the big picture of what happens to me but then when Im in that funk I become a horrible person. I hate myself, my life, my situation, okay I shouldn’t say hate because that’s really strong, but I get disappointed and frustrated and negative. I get lazy, I do nothing productive, I feel worthless and I feel like life is pointless, I can’t think clearly and I become numb. I can’t feel anything and almost have no emotion. Its like if I could step out of my body and shake it I would.

So I’ve been praying about it and talking to Peter about stuff and then tonight I was listening to Jason Upton (amazingly anointed worshipper, you should check him out if u never heard of him) and the words to the song just spoke to me so directly. “I will not let pain have its way, Im gonna trust in you” and its like someone flipped a switch and I just teared up and cried out to Him and a weight was lifted and my heart was light again. I feel again. I have joy and peace in my heart. I trust Him again. Why couldn’t I have it two days ago? I don’t know but I feel like these ups and downs are God teaching me things about myself. He’s dealing with me. I see that now and am thankful for it but going through it just down right sucks. Uh Im so thankful to be on the other side, heading up the rollercoaster. Its so exhausting to be upset. I feel free and back to my old self again. Yay!

But ladies I truly would love to hear your thoughts on this topic. What topic, I don’t even know what to call it but is your life an emotional rollercoaster too or do you have words of wisdom? Ill take it all. Its always comforting to know that you’re not the only one going through something. And please thing of me in your prayers!

Noni and her veggies!

You mamas out there now how it is with our sweet babes, wherever we are that's where they want to be as well. At dinner time is when Noni gets to play in the kitchen while I make dinner. So what better thing to play with then VEGGIES! Some how some way she has gotten a hold of a number of different veggies and I just had to take a pic. She likes them more when they are whole then when its actually time to eat them.

cucumber

celery

radish

radish & cabbage

sweet potato
Such a cutie! Who knows maybe she'll be a veggie lover like her mama!

Lovely Weekend!

What a lovely weekend we had. Full of family, fun, food, and sunshine. Peter and I got to spend 4 full days together in a row. It was a break that Peter really needed. A chance to relax, to do things around the house, not have to think, and not have to DO anything. Sometimes we all just need that. Unfortunately there are times when you can’t get that break unless it’s a holiday. So praise the lord for holidays.

We had two picnics at our house. Thirty people on Sunday and ten people on Monday. I just love entertaining. Its so fun to have people come to our house, its like bringing them in to our world a little bit. We had tons of food did lots of visiting.






Played volleyball, played crouquet, played horse shoes,


My favorite parts of the weekend:
going to the farmers market with Peter
watching Peter play with Nonah outside
driving with the windows down and music blaring
seeing Noni being passed around and having so much fun
little tiny sunglasses
kids running through the "crazy daisy"
sweat beads on Nonis nose all the time
Nonis curly qs from all the humidity and sweat
picnic food all day long
games you only play with family
and the list goes on!

Summer~time

So everyone has been blogging about summer so I think I should too. Uhh, I just love summer. I guess it technically isnt summer yet for a couple more weeks but when theres 80-90 degree weather ya might as well call it summer. Right?

I love everything about summer. The smell of grills in the air cooking really yummy food, dirty feet and toes from running in and out barefoot all day, dirt under your nails from digging in the garden, and the stickyness of your skin from sweating all day. I may have just totally grossed you out but uh I just love those things. It means summer is here.

I love when the main dish for dinner consists of 90% veggies because you just have veggies galore, I love flip flop tan lines and florescent nail polish. I love the way my freckles pop into big brown sploches from the sun. I love tank tops and skirts and the simpleness of a summer wardrobe. I love Petey going shirtless all the time. (sorry too much info huh:)) I love windows wide open and birds churping 24/7. I love picnics and sprinklers. I love iced tea so much more in the summer than in the winter. I love iced coffee ooo and frappacinos from Starbx. I love campfires and smores. I love swimming and being exhausted from simply being in the sun. I love baby legs hanging out all summer long and the fact that is totally not inappropriate. I love love love the beach, everything about it. I love that I get to experience all of these things with my sweet Noni girl for the first time.
I could go on but Im probably boring you.


So have a great summer everyone and let me know what you love most about summer~time!!

To live simply and simply live~

I’ve been contemplating the whole idea of living simply and what it means for my family. I love the idea of living in a way that doesn’t involve indulgence or excessiveness. In this day and age it can be a hard thing to accomplish but then I realized maybe its not so hard after all.
There’s so much hipe these days about being “green” and recycling and natural living. Which don’t get me wrong is a good thing and we should take care of the earth by not littering and doing our best to not pollute the air. But why is this such a new concept? I grew up being taught to respect your surroundings. That’s just what ya do. Clean up after yourself, turn lights off when you’re not in a room, don’t take more than 5 minute showers (if u can help it), recycle the things that can be recycled…lets see what else did we do growing up… we always had to eat what was on our plate, reused Ziploc bags if they weren’t yucky, bought produce, meat, and eggs from local farmers, always ate leftovers, had a compost pile, grew a garden,(a really big one actually) had a woodstove, hung wash out on a wash line and probably more “eco friendly” stuff. As I write this I realize that some of these things would be pretty impossible for those who live in urban areas, but some of the things I listed most certainly are possible no matter where you live. I just find it pretty cool that the fad (or whatever you want to call it) of being earth friendly and “green” as we now call it has been my families way of living all along. I think it is great that more and more people are taking part in this conscious living and being aware that what you do does matter and does have consequences.


That being said Peter and I do live a simple life. We do our part in taking care of our land and appreciate every inch of it’s beauty and acknowledging Him who created it, but we don’t worry about it. Because we know this land will not last forever. There will be a knew heaven and a new earth for His people which I cannot wait to see and experience. Okay I guess I can wait because I am enjoying this earth but I know it too will be amazing. I’m looking forward to it. What I’m trying to say is that I truly love the concept of being “green” but we partake in it for different reasons then a lot of the world. We will continue to live simply and take care of the earth because that’s how we live. And we will teach our kids to live this way as well.

I will say that I love all the “green” products they make out of recycled stuff because they’re usually earthy natural colors. Green, brown and that tannish oatmeal color are my favorite colors.

I’d love to hear some of your thoughts on this topic and what you all do to be “green.”