"You're Beautiful"

I don’t know if any of you are familiar with the singer Paul Wright. (No he’s not related to me) I was listening to his CD yesterday on my ride home from the grocery store and this song just stood out to me. It not only sounds beautiful but the words are beautiful. It got me thinking and worshiping and just stirred something up inside of me. So I looked it up on youtube in order to listen to it again and then I found this video, which is so appropriate. Please hit play and close your eyes. Let God speak to you through this song. (if you want to)

Some of you may or may not know that my husband and I went to a School of Ministry about two years ago. We were both in pretty good paying jobs, were renting a small but perfect apartment, and were living comfortably. BUT we wanted more. We both recommitted our lives to the Lord right before we started dating (so about 4 years before we left for school) and we were on the same page spiritually, we just wanted a change. More purpose, more direction, more of HIM! So we packed up and went to school thinking we would not be back to so called "normal" life for a long time. We gave it our all at school in order to get everything we could out of it. We learned so much about God, we experienced Him in new ways, we learned to love and minister to others and we had a taste of ministry life. It was amazing and life changing but towards the end of school we were worn out. We needed a break. So we came home and tried to seek God about what to do next. We felt called to the mission field, Africa actually. After a few months we decided that maybe now wasn’t the time to go to Africa so we started looking at houses online. I kid you not the same night that started looking we got an email from a family friend about a trip to Africa. He was going to Kenya ,I think, and thought of us. We took that as an obvious sign that we were supposed to go on this trip. Well a long story short we did everything we could in our power to go on this trip and it did not happen. Peter’s passport was missing. Literally. He applied for a second one and it just kept getting sent here and there but not to us. We were not sure what was going on, if it was the enemy trying to stop us or God. Well we see now that it was God looking out for us. A month later I went to the ER with major stomach pains because I had intaceseption. Who knows what would have happened if we were in Africa when that happened. After that we decided to settle down. We bought our home in Nov and found out I was pregnant in Dec.

For the past year or so I have been kind of going through the motions. I was so ready to have a baby but I was not ready to settle down. I wanted to go, we’re young we should go now while we can, right? Well God is just now beginning to show me our purpose for this time in our life. (Or I’m just starting to be open to see it) He’s preparing us. Preparing us for what exactly I don’t know but something bigger. We were prophesied over at school that in a season and a half we will be in our destiny. That could be 5 years 15 years or 30 years we don’t know but we are so looking forward to it. We’re learning, growing, and experiencing life right now that will be beneficial to us in the future. Now is the time to just soak in as much of Him as we can in order to someday give out all that we can.

I feel like I’ve been rambling but I’m just so excited about what Gods doing and I haven’t been excited about God stuff in a while. He is so good to us and I loose sight of that sometimes. His plan is perfect. I finally am at peace with where we are and what we are doing right now. And that is surviving, thriving, makin babies and raising them to be able to survive and thrive as well!! Its so fun!
Hope this blesses you to get excited for what God has for planned for you!